Happy holidays and almost--new-year. Eee!
Does anyone else panic slightly at the end of the year? I always feel there's so much more I wish I'd done or completed or achieved. Since it's easy to be hard on myself, a few years ago I started always writing down what actually happened- I'm usually surprised.
For me this year started with a trek across America filming Minor , playing shows in small towns like Alamagordo and ending in LA. Then I went to London and worked with some incredibly talented humans. When I came back to Toronto to focus on finishing some tracks I had new bravery. I dove into a handful of projects; I've been improving my understanding of synths and sound construction, practicing my classical theory, singing on rap songs, and becoming a better writer. Also, having a few commissioned projects has been a huge encouragement. Making money doing something I love is weird but great. But my own songs were always my focus.
My personal project isn't just a skeleton anymore. The songs are sparse and a bit dark and I like them! Don Kerr is a genius and has given me so much freedom to try stuff out- I'm grateful to work with someone so innovative and patient. You know what's the best? Saying "I like this sound!" and not worrying about that sound being cool or weird enough or marketable or whatever. I've had to develop that courage, to speak through intuition (some people are so naturally good at this). Having that space is golden.
Now listening is like staring at a reflection of your face- where you see every line and pimple and freckle and you forget you're looking at a face. And then to stand back and see the face from farther away like a Monet and be like "Ohhh I get what was there all along!" It's magic.
Okay final thing/cute story: I've learned enough about home recording to have a mini setup with me everywhere I go (yay!). This Christmas I am at my parent's place way out in the country. My Omi always lived with us, and when she went on to greater things (Ie heaven) her apartment was left mostly empty. Some of her books are still there. When I decided to do some tracking in her apartment, I was surprised by the acoustics of the room. There's a nice reverb but everything is full and big without too much echoiness. I asked around and it turns out it was originally built to be a recording studio! I love the idea of a room holding that secret until it was discovered again, so many years later. I just recorded there for the nostalgia but the room was waiting for me.
Anyway, that's a bit of what I'm up to! I hope the holidays don't succeed in tricking you into feeling like you need to buy all the stuff and eat all the stuff but instead, that you remember to connect with the people you love and to be loved yourself.
Cheers to a new year of magic.